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Jeanene and I joined Covenant Baptist Church in September of 1989. By the Spring of 1990 I was the youth minister/associate pastor. Apart from a one-month sabbatical 8 years ago and some Sundays here and there for vacation or to speak or preach elsewhere, I’ve been at Covenant every Sunday for almost 20 years.
 
I’m tired. I’m not physically tired - I’m tired of being in charge. Those who know Covenant are probably laughing and saying, “In charge of what? What kind of organization does your church have anyway?” And that would be a fair question. Covenant has got to be the least institutional and most loosely organized Baptist church on the planet. And yet, regardless of organizational demands or a lack thereof, there is a certain emotional burden that comes with being the pastor. I’m the one you know will always be there. I’m the one who arrives early to open the doors and stays late to lock them. And I’m the one who will always always always have something to say on Sundays. I can’t speak for other ministers, but I’ve lost touch with how I feel because how I feel doesn’t really matter. I’m paid to be there on Sundays, so I will be there.

I’m a professional Christian. That sounds crass, but I am. I try to keep my own personal devotion and spiritual practice alive, but there is always that obligation resting heavily on my shoulders. Am I a part of the community, or am I an employee of the community? That’s a real question that all ministers should ask themselves, in my opinion.

So it is an incredible joy for me to announce that my beloved Covenant friends have given me a 3 month sabbatical. I will not be at our church again until the first Sunday of August. I’ve removed myself from our email list. I will not know what is going on at Covenant. I guess if a plane crashes into our building someone will tell me, but otherwise, they are on their own.

And I am on my own.

I am a multi-vocational pastor, so my other jobs go on. This is not really a vacation time. But I will have more time, and I intend to lean hard into my writing for the next three months. What creativity the sermon gets will go straight into writing. I’m so thrilled I don’t know what to say. Jeanene will tell you that after almost 7 years of Real Live Preacher, I still look forward to every chance I get to be alone and write.

I had to put the Consafo project on hold while I started a new job with Jethro. I’m going to get back into the process of publishing that book, hoping to have it in hand before Christmas.

And on Sunday mornings, I’m going to church myself. I’m going to walk into churches with nothing to do but listen. I'm of the opinion that most ministers need to sit down and be quiet sometimes. Maybe we would if we could. Well, I can now and I will. I will be silent. Here is where I will be this Sunday morning at 10 am. I’m joining a San Antonio community of Friends (Quakers) for a time of silent worship. I hear these people show up at worship with no agenda and no schedule. And no one has to say anything unless the Spirit leads.

However much a person can comprehend the Spirit of God, I feel I’ve told that I’m to keep silent. Quiet quiet quiet. Mine is not to speak in these days. Mine is to listen. What wisdom I have will be kept inside of me. What wisdom can be found by listening is what I will seek.

I will Tweet and blog my way through this time, of course. Talk about blog fodder! I’m going to church. Who KNOWS what might happen to me.

gordon

I am so thrilled for you,


I am so thrilled for you, and cant wait to hear what you come up with!

I won't follow his


I won't follow his words.They are worthless.His words are not true.Don't believe in his words.
regards,
by Kevin

It is a good site.But I


It is a good site.But I can't wait for what you are going to approach.But feels interesting.

Gordon that is fantastic


Gordon that is fantastic news. Congratulations--best decision anyone could have made, to give you 3 months' sabbatical!! Here's praying for a rejuvenation the likes of which have not been seen in 2000 years. ::chuckle::

God bless the good people of Covenant Baptist Church.


That's great, Gordon. You are experiencing your own personal three months of Jubilee. Only pastors can know what a relief it is to lay down that "professional" burden and just be a child of God. No matter how fruitful our ministry or how loving and supportive our church may be, we need this sabbath rest. God bless your people. May more and more churches learn by their example.

I'm happy for you


Take a deep breath and enjoy. And listen - it's one of life's most rewarding pleasures.

"Am I a part of the


"Am I a part of the community, or am I an employee of the community?" <-- Ain't that just the question. I feel like those of us (ordained or not) who professionally minister to congregations balance on that line every day.

I'm so happy for you and I hope this time of rest and rejuvenation is all that you pray it will be! Enjoy your time with the Friends this weekend :-)

Church-hopping can offer


Church-hopping can offer great insights; you're checking out multiple denominations/other faiths, I presume? Catholics and Orthodox and Jews, and maybe a tour of a mosque if you have one in the near vicinity?

I went to everything I could walk to when I was in college and took fairly copious notes from memory after the services; was informative and also helped me view my own tradition anew.

Enjoy your time!

Wow! That's just great! I


Wow! That's just great!

I always thought I invented the phrase professional christian (I'm am amateur) but it's great anyway. I hope you - somehow - truly manage to have time away; that you sleep lots; and won't feel as tired when you get back

May God bless this time of


May God bless this time of renewal and give you peace.

Savor every moment. The time will pass too quickly.

alan

Thanks everyone!


Thanks everyone!

Skip Some Sundays


Don't feel obligated to go to any church for some Sundays. Get out into nature. Go to the woods/beach/mountains. Spend a lot of time in silence with nothing but the sounds of nature. Although I really appreciate what you write here, don't even feel like you have to keep this up if it will help you rejuvenate.

I frankly don't trust preachers who are so sure of everything that there is no room for any doubt or questioning. When I hear their smug, confident preaching, I think, "How the hell can you be so sure that you're not lying?" But we just sit there in the pews and nod our heads and say amen. So I hope that your sabbatical makes you even more skeptical than you are already.

I feel no obligations of any


I feel no obligations of any kind, either to go to church or to avoid church. I'm going to do what feels good to me. This Sunday and next, it feels good to go to some other church. After that, who knows?

I'm late....


....but I'm glad to hear this news, Gordon. I hope this is a time of rest and renewal for you.

God bless.

Meeting with Friends


Hey RLP,

I hope you enjoy your time with Friends and are able to hear Spirit in the living silence. And I hope you get to experience a gathered meeting - they are life changing and you'll know it when you are in the presence of one. I hope you have a great journey these next 3 months.

If you get to meet Val while there, would you please tell her Anna from St. Louis says "hi".

In the Light,
Anna

You're a wise man, aren't you?


Good. Glad you're listening to yourself and taking time out for God to refresh you. Have good, full rest.

Loving the picture at the bottom, by the way.

Sabbatical


Gordon,

After 20 years of having to be at church every Sunday, I'd say you deserve a break. I'm glad that your church community is giving you this time to refresh and recharge. Just think, you will now wake up on Sunday mornings, and instead of knowing what you must do, you will be able to ask the question, "What will I do today?" I hope that question leads to some interesting adventures.

I truly hope you enjoy the Friends Meeting. Silence...it's a good thing. I'll be interested to hear your thoughts about the experience.

Donna

P.S. You mentioned in your essay about having to be at church early to unlock the doors. One of my favorite essays is the one about you going to the church early on a Sunday morning with the moon following you. Remember that one?

I'm not surprised you're


I'm not surprised you're knackered. And I think unstructured organisations can be the most tiring.

Incidentally that meeting house looks beautiful. I'm an English quaker (and agnostic and lapsed catholic and longtime RLP reader) and we need to rebuild our meeting house, so it's good to see photos of other lovely ones.

overjoyed for you


Oh G-

this is fantastic. respite.

Zanna from Montana!...I


Zanna from Montana!...I always like hearing from you.

I know that professional


I know that professional Christians like myself are not supposed to feel (or at least say) this: but I am so jealous right now I can barely speak.

But good for you :-)

That's exactly what happen


That's exactly what happen at a Quaker meeting. No schedule, no plan, no minister. Just silence. If you are moved to say something, do so. But you may not respond to what someone else has said. Each person's saying remains alone, so it can be thought of in its wholeness, if you wish to. If it does not speak to you, that's OK too.

The silence is profound, and deep. Explore yourself, and what the silence brings.

It will do something to you, and for you. Good luck with it.

Chuck Nolan

Pema Chodron, the Tibetan


Pema Chodron, the Tibetan Buddhist teacher, talks about how afraid we are of silence, constantly trying to avoid what we'll find in it by filling it up and distracting ourselves.

I have found the silence of Quaker meetings very profound when I've visited for worship. There is a weight to it, a quality of its own that both grounds and opens you up to spirit.

silence is very important...


silence is very important... This reflection is very interesting and i'm going to read about ! i want to increase my knowledge about it !

And here I was, hunkering


And here I was, hunkering down for a fast from my new addiction of checking real live preacher every other day, trying to resign myself to the idea that you would have less time for your rlp writing. I feel I owe your congregation thanks. However, as someone else wrote, I hope you don't feel that you have to keep up the blog, either, if that gets in the way of rest and rejuvenation.

On another subject--Hey, did you hear the "On Point" discussion on NPR today (4/29) with the LA Times journalist who wrote a book about giving up on his Christian faith after spending years covering the religion beat? He seemed sort of ill informed. He claimed there was no one speaking in the area of Christians living with doubt. I should be finding out what his website is and sending him to read you.

Sabbatical


Gordon--

Enjoy your sabbath time. The greatest joy in my recent sabbatical (summer 2008) was being able to worship with my family with no other responsibilities but to be.

May God richly bless you!

Very interesting article


Very interesting article

I agree with you, such an


I agree with you, such an interesting post !!!

To the author of a blog …


To the author of a blog … I Read your blog rather recently. That it would be desirable to note (do not think that with what that I reproach or I try to give advice) laconic enough design, anything superfluous I would tell))) your subjects are close to me, and it pleases. But why do not write the opinion on the events occurring in the world, in respect of events international for example?? I understand, that “news suffice”, but sometimes it would be desirable to learn opinion of the usual person, so to say - an independent sight, to compare it to the opinion. And so … Write even more often, even more, and even more interestingly. Thanks!

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